tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post8090042665830759757..comments2023-07-12T14:34:31.407+01:00Comments on A Life In The Day Of A Basics Doc: The TreeRapidResponseDochttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03544668439101821499noreply@blogger.comBlogger33125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-25836797942679162652010-07-26T11:10:50.478+01:002010-07-26T11:10:50.478+01:00Hi Jupiter, no, I didn't get the message. But...Hi Jupiter, no, I didn't get the message. But, keep writing your blog - it's good!RapidResponseDochttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03544668439101821499noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-79441491256119212862010-07-23T21:20:38.464+01:002010-07-23T21:20:38.464+01:00Hey RRD, Mrs RRD and RRD Snr :)
RRD I tried to s...Hey RRD, Mrs RRD and RRD Snr :)<br /><br /><br />RRD I tried to send you a message via here but I have no idea if it got sent or anything, if you got it could you possibly let me know because if not I'll send it again.<br /><br />Thank you!! :)<br /><br /><br />PS, I've been writing in my blog a bit and I'm finding it helpful. Especially because no-one knows who I am. In a way it's really quite liberating.Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-15316819072919441862010-07-11T23:42:28.912+01:002010-07-11T23:42:28.912+01:00Just wanted to say I'm still here, RRD Snr I&#...Just wanted to say I'm still here, RRD Snr I've written some stuff now so you'll be able to see it if you want to take a look.<br /><br />Admittedly, I'm struggling right now, but I actually think that the totally anonymous writing is going to help.Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-34841166324197627412010-07-01T14:37:06.469+01:002010-07-01T14:37:06.469+01:00Ok, RRD Snr :) I've followed the instructions...Ok, RRD Snr :) I've followed the instructions as best I can and set up my blog. Do you want me to become a follower of yours so we get linked?Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-48770297517533186072010-07-01T12:55:11.883+01:002010-07-01T12:55:11.883+01:00Hi, Jupiter & RRD. Please have a look at my bl...Hi, Jupiter & RRD. Please have a look at my blog. The address is http://lostinthemidstofspaceandtime.blogspot.com/<br /><br />It is a simple set of ideas which are self-explanatary.<br /><br />RRD can you add a link on this blog to mine and eventually to all the Planets??RRD's Dadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03653574031589132166noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-81643297965528179902010-07-01T08:30:30.283+01:002010-07-01T08:30:30.283+01:00No, Jupiter. You did exactly as I requested so qu...No, Jupiter. You did exactly as I requested so quickly that I still believe we should continue. Everyone makes the odd indiscretion and as long as one tries to make amends why should everything stop. We two are going to be positive NOW and FOREVER!!<br />It's just that I've had a ridiculously hectic few days including a (very insignificant) hospital visit!!<br />Just give me a day or so and I'll get it all moving forward. Have a good weekend all who read this, especially you, Jupiter!!RRD's Dadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03653574031589132166noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-69850342091141399022010-07-01T03:50:13.462+01:002010-07-01T03:50:13.462+01:00Re RRD Snr and Jupiter, have you considered using ...Re RRD Snr and Jupiter, have you considered using a forum as an alternative to a blog? This way, only one of you needs to put details in as a forum administrator, perhaps jupiter as, as you've said, you have an anonymous email address. Once this is done, if you enable anonymous posting, nobody need ever enter any more details.<br /><br />www.freeforums.org offers a very simple way of signing up for free forums. All you need to do to ensure anonymity is encourage all users to use a false information when registering.Jamiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05548720367233974122noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-44449390103734662222010-07-01T02:48:31.667+01:002010-07-01T02:48:31.667+01:00This comment has been removed by the author.Jamiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05548720367233974122noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-82439177003583590592010-06-30T21:48:14.454+01:002010-06-30T21:48:14.454+01:00Guess I've lost a great opportunity here becau...Guess I've lost a great opportunity here because of my utter stupidity in sharing that email address.<br /><br />No great surprise. Just the same as usual, I always do this.<br /><br />Sorry I let you down.Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-89192342905837119542010-06-28T16:35:58.825+01:002010-06-28T16:35:58.825+01:00I am *so* sorry, I thought that because that email...I am *so* sorry, I thought that because that email address is just an alias and not my real one it'd be ok for me to share it with you. It doesn't identify me in any way at all.<br /><br />The email I shared is completely anonymous and is the one I use for things where I don't want anyone to know who I am. There is no way I can be identified by it.<br /><br />I take my anonymity and that of others VERY seriously which is why I'd never post my real address. We are thinking the same way and like you, I will just vanish if someone tries to find out who I am.<br /><br /><br />Interlocking blogs sound interesting, I've got no idea how that might work so I shall wait for your advice. I am involved in a project where all of the people on the team have access to one blog so we share the password and can all write to it. There is trust involved in that but so far it's working out very well.Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-36654202572383158792010-06-28T10:41:38.565+01:002010-06-28T10:41:38.565+01:00What a wonderful RRD Snr - best of luck to you bot...What a wonderful RRD Snr - best of luck to you both, hopefully you could advertise your blog on other forums or blogs as somewhere where people can be anonymous and just talk.<br /><br />"My identity is completely hidden and when I signed up for this account I put Jupiter as first name and Rock as surname."<br /><br />I do not think that that is Jupiter's real email address, so no worries!Internal Optimisthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16194212321633856081noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-43327270142811206272010-06-28T08:59:18.683+01:002010-06-28T08:59:18.683+01:00Jupiter, pleased you want to join. PLEASE edit yo...Jupiter, pleased you want to join. PLEASE edit your last comment immediately and get rid of your email address. That loses anonymity. I did say I'd disappear if anyone tried to find out who I am and I thought that was what you wanted to do too. Maymbe we will have interlocking blogs so that we only have our own passwords. I'll enquire. BUT, FIRST get rid of that email address before it's too late!RRD's Dadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03653574031589132166noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-74050033621762440792010-06-26T14:54:56.227+01:002010-06-26T14:54:56.227+01:00This comment has been removed by the author.Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-66762774370524865132010-06-26T07:28:26.774+01:002010-06-26T07:28:26.774+01:00Jupiter, Good Morning to you. This Blog thing is ...Jupiter, Good Morning to you. This Blog thing is amazing and I want to start my own. EXCEPT I'd like you to help me!! I told you I love your name. I want to call my blog "The Planets" Jupiter obviously inspired the name and I'll have to choose another planet name for myself. <br /><br />My idea is we should ALWAYS and FOREVER be anonymous. No photos, no email addresses, no telephone numbers. Just occasional musings or rantings to let off steam or beg for answers for our problems. As few personal details as possible. We could try to attract a few more 'planets' to join our blog. Slowly, and only other anonymous people. NOT friends, NOT enemies, NOT anyone who could possibly know who we were. I have no idea how to start things moving. If anyone reads this, perhaps they could point Jupiter and RRDs Dad in the right direction. PLEASE, nobody try to find out who we are and contact us. If you do, I for one, will disappear completely!! That gives me an idea for my new name, Pluto, its the furthest from the sun, so hopefully more difficult to find!!<br /><br />How about it, Jupiter ? ~Will you join The Planets ??RRD's Dadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03653574031589132166noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-20377457890733209602010-06-26T00:27:29.708+01:002010-06-26T00:27:29.708+01:00Mrs RRD, you're too kind. I would never be ab...Mrs RRD, you're too kind. I would never be able to help children who have been through the same kind of things as me, I wouldn't be able to lie to them and say that it'd be ok in the end.<br /><br />The thing is, I am nothing. I've screwed up, done the wrong things, disappointed constantly. Nothing I've done or ever do is right. Always a flaw of some sort.<br /><br />My 'mother' never wanted me. She wanted a child but not a child like me. From day zero I was a disappointment, curse if you like. I've tried to please her and make her proud of me but I never manage it. I've given up on that now.<br /><br />I remember one parents evening when I was in senior school. I got good reports from most of the teachers and *she* was getting all cocky and claiming she was so proud and all the rest of it. Then she had to meet with my RE teacher with whom I had a relationship akin to that of mortal enemies. She really disliked me and the feeling was mutual. Anyway, RE teacher described me as "the worst pupil she'd ever taught". Mother literally had a breakdown, I was mortified by her behaviour. She got home and told Dad then rang a friend of hers. The friend told her that his son had been described with those exact words two years previously.<br /><br />It goes back further than that. When I was around 4/5mths old she was breastfeeding me and I'd obviously just started to get teeth and accidentally bit her. She (literally) slapped me away and started yelling. Then she made a huge fuss when I thereafter refused the breast.<br /><br />There are 100's of anecdotes I could share about her treatment of me. It's not so much that I've tried to end my own life but she tried, at least twice, to end it for me. My Dad was virtually unaware of any of it due to our circumstances. I lied to cover it up.<br /><br />Sorry, I'm kinda down just now and I'm just writing with no real purpose. Growing up from babyhood knowing that I was immediately rejected by my mother seems to have left a bit of a scar. I'm just so lucky that my Dad is the kind and compassionate man that he is. If it wasn't for him, I would not have survived.Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-54455179841635902932010-06-24T23:19:30.616+01:002010-06-24T23:19:30.616+01:00I am so saddened by your story, your desperation a...I am so saddened by your story, your desperation and your desire to die. I am so pleased that your attempt to end your life didn't work.I am sorry you don't feel that way too.<br /><br />Life is precious and while you don't see that at the moment, maybe one day you will. You write well. You have, through your words, enabled so many people here to see life from your perspective, you have moved us all and given us an understanding we could never have had if it were not for you. You have a gift. <br />Why not use that gift to help other abused children? You could take some counselling courses, the training programmes usually offer you counselling first, then you can help troubled children. The insight and understanding you could offer to them would be so incredible that I am sure, with support, you would find yourself healing, while healing others too. <br />Please try and see the worth you have, leave those who have damaged you behind and move forward, make a difference. <br /><br />I believe you can.Mrs RRDhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10140229085070463408noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-63485889926610429022010-06-21T21:01:22.323+01:002010-06-21T21:01:22.323+01:00I just wish it had worked.I just wish it had worked.Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-4975691879230174092010-06-21T21:00:13.449+01:002010-06-21T21:00:13.449+01:00The name is just the title of a song I didn't ...The name is just the title of a song I didn't invent it. The thing is I am quite a positive person, that sounds so weird but I don't tend to look on the dark side of anything. I have a totally inappropriate sense of humour and it has got me through a lot of things.<br /><br />The problem comes when, as you suggested RRD Snr, I do something that could be seen as being positive. I can't see the point in it. I can look at beautiful things but feel nothing other than "is that it?".<br /><br />People always describe as 'resilient' and 'strong' which in some ways is true.<br /><br />As that 10yr old I wanted to make everything stop. I knew very well that death was like a full-stop. All I wanted was freedom from the things that were happening and I remember the feeling of not even being able to die properly.<br /><br />I was seriously and dangerously brain-washed and manipulated as a child and adolescent. Thanks to genetics I am still in contact, albeit very unwanted contact, with one of the people who did that. I'm 30 and they still use the same tricks and mind games as they did when I was a child. The difference is that I am now able to see what they're doing. From the perspective of a young child, younger than ten, I thought that the things going on were 'normal' and that every boy and girl were exactly the same as me. It was around ten that I suddenly realised that I was different than other children and that the sexual, emotional, psychological and physical abuse and all the manipulation were not at all 'normal'.<br /><br />I never had any idea how to fix it. Suicide felt like the only option for me to escape what was happening.Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-64599990638184806902010-06-19T08:46:34.364+01:002010-06-19T08:46:34.364+01:00Jupiter!! What a fantastic name!! If you can thi...Jupiter!! What a fantastic name!! If you can think up a name like that, you've got lots going for you. When you wake up tomorrow (or why not RIGHT NOW)do one tiny positive thing (wash your hands and see how clean they are and marvel at how your fingers move). Everyone who reads this blog and its comments is on your side and willing you to become a posiitve human being. AND you can. Keep writing; it's such a wonderful way a getting rid of those bad thoughts and swopping them for good ones instead.RRD's Dadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03653574031589132166noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-16014048228176771902010-06-18T11:58:15.413+01:002010-06-18T11:58:15.413+01:00No he probably will never know. But I still think ...No he probably will never know. But I still think sharing your experience is valuable. After all how many suicidal 10 year olds can articulate and explain how they are feeling and why they are feeling that, so for someone to share their viewpoint from when they were that 10 year old is in some small way giving a voice to people in that situation. I hope you manage to find some help or solution that works for you. And if it gives you hope I struggled with severe depression for around 10 years, but in this last 6 months it has lifted, I've reclaimed my life and I feel like a different person. Whilst it's incredibly difficult to hold out hope after such a long period of suffering try and remember that people can get better, even after many years.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-76093675062432486182010-06-18T00:33:10.402+01:002010-06-18T00:33:10.402+01:00"Keep reading, keep writing: we are all there...<i>"Keep reading, keep writing: we are all there for you."</i><br /><br />Did you write that for me?<br /><br />I don't want to use your space for my issues. It isn't fair. This is your place for your writing. I have been reading along for ages and I respect your blog as being about your work but not part of your work.<br /><br />Somehow I thought that if I told you about me as a ten year old it would help that little boy feel less alone. But, I guess he'll never know.Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-15688006234632133782010-06-17T14:23:58.638+01:002010-06-17T14:23:58.638+01:00The beauty of the Internet in general, and blogs i...The beauty of the Internet in general, and blogs in particular, is the ability to speak your mind and yet still remain anonymous. You can, and should, say whatever it is you want, or need, to say.<br /><br />The more I write here, the more I realise how important it is for everyone to have a voice. <br /><br />Keep reading, keep writing: we are all there for you.RapidResponseDochttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03544668439101821499noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-40939254108791706732010-06-16T23:35:12.969+01:002010-06-16T23:35:12.969+01:00Sorry, I should have just kept quiet.
I know that...Sorry, I should have just kept quiet.<br /><br />I know that 30 is still quite young and that there is the possibility of life ahead of me. I know that I should be grateful for what I do have and make the most of everyday. I know that there is potential for change and that I should keep asking for help. I know that maybe, just maybe, things could change in the future. I know that people think I should pull myself together and get over it because it's been going on so long they think it is just a habit. I know that cutting myself off, screening calls, avoiding texts and having auto-responders on my email accounts might be seen as me intentionally making things worse or seeking attention.<br /><br />I know that if the knot had held that day in the schoolyard the lives of people who have been forced into my company would have been so different, brighter, happier and very much more stress free.<br /><br />You say not to write myself off but I haven't written myself off. Someone else did that, long before I had the cognitive ability to try and do it to myself.Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-9553635956986951822010-06-16T11:05:14.704+01:002010-06-16T11:05:14.704+01:00Jupiter, I really don't mean this to sound ins...Jupiter, I really don't mean this to sound insensitive, but you're only 30! You too have a whole life ahead of you, and are just as worthy of being happy as anyone else on this planet. Don't write yourself off, ok?molliemallonehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06366257012341954035noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990254441624674011.post-79740434441907609812010-06-15T14:05:37.506+01:002010-06-15T14:05:37.506+01:00I have been reading. I didn't want to say any...I have been reading. I didn't want to say anything else because I didn't want to cause any more distress to RRD or any other readers.<br /><br />Over time I have tried to get help, I do take antidepressant medication, it masks my feelings. Drugs don't cure stuff they are just a plaster. I have begged the NHS to offer me some kind of talking help but I am always told that the waiting lists are very long and I am functioning well so don't really need it.<br /><br />I've stopped asking now. What's the point. Others are in much more need of help than me. Children like the little boy you've written about, RRD, it is people like him who need the help.<br /><br />Too late for me, the outcome is inevitable. I don't think it matters. I am nothing.<br /><br />That little lad has a whole future in front of him.Infinite_Galaxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11119992406393156140noreply@blogger.com